AND THEN THERE WAS GRAY
Do you see me looking at you through the window<br/> Do you feel my breath beyond the glass<br/> Do you see me staring at you through the iris<br/> <br/> I can tell it pulling at me<br/> I can see you thinking about me<br/> Maybe I'm just conjuring these thoughts<br/> <br/> Someone told me not to go there<br/> Someone told you not to talk<br/> Someone told you I was just insane<br/> Found it at the bottom line<br/> Never tried to redefine it<br/> The machine is always operating<br/> Feeding off the thoughts of the insane<br/> Now I see it's operating<br/> Souls without an end<br/> <br/> There's no doctor that can hold the medicine<br/> While I swallow it<br/> Just swallow it<br/> I can see it's complicated<br/> Lurking like a secret agent <br/> Venom in my mind<br/> <br/> Don't look for light around here<br/> You will not see it clear<br/> Now there's a picture here with me<br/> Lingered through my self esteem<br/> I know it isn't a dream<br/> <br/> Carving out my lungs<br/> Everything looks good inside This rope that was used<br/> By the devil in my mind<br/> Coming down at me<br/> Thee dark expelled from my lungs<br/> You know me so well<br/> Isn't this love<br/> You know me so well now<br/> <br/> I can feel it pulling at me<br/> I can see you thinking about me<br/> Maybe I'm just conjuring these thoughts<br/> I can feel it pulling at me<br/> I can see you thinking about me<br/> Maybe I'm just conjuring these thoughts<br/> <br/> Someone told you not to go there<br/> Someone told you not to talk<br/> Someone told you I was just insane<br/> Found it at the bottom line<br/> Never tried to redefine <br/> The machine is always operating<br/> Feeding off the thoughts of the insane <br/> Deranged
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
I'm in love <br/> Do I tell you<br/> Screw you<br/> Fucked in the rear view<br/> <br/> He's the man with a plan Coming for a little change<br/> Let's travel, I have blow<br/> Jealous for the little things <br/> Getting good to feel this way<br/> Jealous for the little things <br/> Getting good to feel this way<br/> Jealous for the little things<br/> <br/> Oh love you feel blow<br/> Marriage sex<br/> Mind fucked<br/> I wanna give it to you<br/> The best of sickness <br/> And sex<br/> I wanna show you how<br/> How the cocaine is<br/> Can it suck<br/> Can it suck like you<br/> Get it out of you<br/> <br/> He's the man with the plan Coming for a little change<br/> Let's travel, I have blow<br/> We're screwing into oblivion<br/> He's the plan with the plan <br/> I have blow<br/> Let's blow it to fractions<br/> Down on feral knees<br/> Whole mind fuck<br/> <br/> I am sober <br/> Whack a moloch<br/> World just leads to me<br/> I am sinful <br/> But I'm clean<br/> Fucking road just leads to me<br/> Fucking world just leads to me<br/> Fucking world just leads to me<br/> Fucking road just leads to me<br/> I am sinful <br/> But I'm clean
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
I feel lead down roads <br/> I can't explain<br/> The way that view <br/> Let down <br/> Roads <br/> This path I traveled<br/> As worth <br/> I'd watch time pass<br/> Proportions <br/> <br/> I'm counting crows inside <br/> My mind <br/> I'm looking at way <br/> The wingspan<br/> Glides on my timeline <br/> I'm counting the days <br/> Like a raven<br/> I fly within the order<br/> <br/> Do the math motherfucker<br/> It's so weirdly and strangely<br/> Disproportionate<br/> In the flames <br/> I'm burning fast <br/> Into the obscurity<br/> We are all just festering <br/> Inside our broken dreams<br/> Count the cost <br/> It's in my heart <br/> Count the stitches in my scars<br/> Keep my name revitalized<br/> Surely I am wearing thin <br/> It's sore<br/> <br/> We're all just actors in my hurt<br/> Wishing we could do it differently<br/> We're all just painting <br/> Pictures for the world to see<br/> But in that wishing well<br/> I would live to see it<br/> No<br/> <br/> I found the truth of it<br/> I'm churning out the torque <br/> Now simmering alive<br/> I finally see myself<br/> It's a brand new view<br/> A hymn true blue <br/> It's a brand new day<br/> To begin looking inward <br/> A path to something ruined <br/> Above and beyond my<br/> Human visions<br/> I am captivated by these<br/> Internalized wishes<br/> Internalized wishes<br/> <br/> Internalized<br/> I now see<br/> Everything that I feared <br/> Was inside of me<br/> It's maturity <br/> Only by the wayside<br/> Now I find the wings inside<br/> I am seeing<br/> Greater heights <br/> My people have died<br/> Beyond my eyes<br/> <br/> Behold the new light<br/> Behold the light <br/> Within my broken past<br/> The dark divine<br/> Behold new light <br/> Within my mind<br/> Behold new light <br/> Revitalize<br/> Behold new light <br/> Revitalize
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
Torrential<br/> The world has now <br/> Fallen to ruins <br/> The flesh is becoming <br/> A thing of the now<br/> Essential<br/> Sequential<br/> I know that we're sinking<br/> The flood has come in to devour us now <br/> The patterns I see <br/> In humanity<br/> <br/> We're losing our empathy <br/> The circle they drew <br/> The great machine <br/> The world is becoming unclean <br/> I'm losing <br/> I'm winning <br/> But somehow <br/> Forgiveness is only <br/> A forethought away <br/> I'm dying for nothing <br/> To watch it in these eyes<br/> Cause the something<br/> Just leads to decay<br/> <br/> Falling down <br/> Eclipse of the abyss<br/> Of our time<br/> A failure of mankind<br/> <br/> Devotion to something that needs to collapse<br/> The world is becoming more like a stained glass<br/> That we've hold in our hands<br/> We worship with eyes of death<br/> <br/> Dissent within this age of disinformation <br/> We're falling from grace as we march toward extinction<br/> Failure becoming the only sign of no relief<br/> <br/> Waiting for my absolution<br/> To show me the way <br/> Show me how I'd come <br/> From humanity to suffering <br/> The weight of the new world<br/> Is growing oh so quickly on me <br/> <br/> We're losing our empathy <br/> The circle they drew <br/> The great machine <br/> The world is becoming unclean <br/> I'm losing <br/> I'm winning <br/> But somehow <br/> Forgiveness is only <br/> A forethought away <br/> I'm dying for nothing <br/> To watch it in these eyes<br/> Cause the something<br/> Just leads to decay
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
I fear maybe that<br/> I'm your mark<br/> I wish I was straight on the edge<br/> You were more to me <br/> Than ever could have provided<br/> I am deficient in just your words<br/> <br/> You're the only calm I knew <br/> I live with a disease of loneliness<br/> And you helped me out<br/> With the sight of your glance<br/> <br/> In the few short moments <br/> Left for you<br/> Had the gun <br/> Trapped me from any thought<br/> I know I was a cunt for your mind<br/> I'm unworthy of sharing your air<br/> <br/> Hold your beautiful smile<br/> A wound in my heart<br/> If I could get you in a dream<br/> Before the blinding <br/> Said to the empty <br/> Now hold the door<br/> A hell for heaven on your porch<br/> <br/> I hurt <br/> Somewhere<br/> Only in your sorrow <br/> There it is <br/> I broke my bone<br/> In the throes <br/> <br/> I feel broken<br/> Damaged and lost<br/> How do I feel less invisible<br/> Your presence <br/> Was the only sign <br/> Of that beautiful<br/> <br/> Deface my face<br/> God cut it off<br/> I'd remove my skin<br/> Please take it as an offering<br/> You can wear it as a mask<br/> I'm sorry<br/> I'm sorry I disgusted you<br/> <br/> The feeling I have now<br/> Breaks me in<br/> I pretend<br/> But the more I bleed<br/> The more unworthy I feel<br/> <br/> I fucking hate you<br/> The way you make me feel<br/> I fucking need you<br/> I need the pain to not be real<br/> Need the pain<br/> Need the pain<br/> I need the pain to not be real
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
I feel comformed <br/> Remember my thoughts<br/> I can't hide<br/> I'm feeling fine<br/> <br/> And I feel that chill<br/> Mister winter <br/> I think of healing <br/> Coming clean <br/> I see that darkness in my mind<br/> A fork inside this heart of mine<br/> Mister winter <br/> Mister winter<br/> Mister winter<br/> <br/> Old mister winter<br/> Mister winter<br/> Can we turn the tides of snow<br/> It's cold and empty form<br/> But still the candle light glows<br/> I put myself and you<br/> Through the fold<br/> Wishing that the time <br/> Would pave <br/> A whiter scene <br/> Its in prayers <br/> <br/> Sinking down so low <br/> I find it hard<br/> To move through this <br/> Cold embrace of death<br/> Here life begins to change <br/> Into temperatures<br/> Of fragments and cold colors<br/> On this stage of life <br/> I can't define<br/> It not my patience anymore <br/> <br/> And I feel that chill<br/> Mister winter <br/> I think of healing <br/> Coming clean <br/> I see that darkness in my mind<br/> A fork inside this heart of mine<br/> <br/> Mister winter <br/> Mister winter<br/> Mister winter<br/> Mister winter<br/> Mister winter<br/> Mister winter<br/> <br/> Can we turn the tides of snow<br/> It's cold and empty form<br/> But still the candle light glows<br/> I put myself and you<br/> Through the fold<br/> Wishing that the time <br/> Would pave <br/> A whiter scene <br/> Its in prayers <br/> <br/> Sinking down so low <br/> I find it hard<br/> To move through this <br/> Cold embrace of death<br/> Here life begins to change <br/> Into temperatures<br/> Of fragments and cold colors<br/> On this stage of life <br/> <br/> Its the fear <br/> That I don't understand <br/> Repulsion <br/> At the ones you <br/> Lose sight of<br/> Pray for fear <br/> In this room<br/> Only grief<br/> Defined by <br/> Only ignorance<br/> And apathy <br/> The cruel society
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
I'm just a shell of me<br/> Another commodity<br/> She wants just what I'd need<br/> Love cost me melody<br/> I am sinking in<br/> All the past mistakes<br/> Sin was not on us<br/> Rewrite verses <br/> <br/> Fall downward<br/> I syncopate <br/> Collapsible creation<br/> No identity<br/> <br/> Burn my heart and burn my soul<br/> Buried in memory cold<br/> But anyways you're quiet<br/> <br/> Now down myself<br/> Don't deny it<br/> I'm turned in <br/> To endless end<br/> And lift the veil <br/> This isn't coming back<br/> <br/> Staring down into a failure<br/> Choke upon every failure <br/> Give me time to raise the roof <br/> But I'm seen invisible <br/> It'a just history<br/> A book I fear to read<br/> Versions of the dream <br/> You don't belong to me<br/> Don't belong to me<br/> <br/> You don't belong to me<br/> Burn my heart and <br/> Burn my soul<br/> Buried in a memory cold
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
I can't think too long<br/> I start dwelling <br/> The perks of being a sea monkey<br/> Well monkey see and sorrow just grows<br/> Sorrow just does<br/> <br/> I need you to remember <br/> To die in moments<br/> My view is fractal<br/> And my heart beats void of color<br/> <br/> The shades of night are everything <br/> I had to hurt by<br/> I can't guage the timelessness<br/> Passerby keeps eternity relevant<br/> I hope you know I'm angry<br/> Not at you but at myself<br/> I should have been somebody else <br/> But a cull of flight <br/> For another descent<br/> I can't fix us<br/> It's not a lack of trying <br/> <br/> Will you visit me<br/> In your conscience <br/> If I ever run out <br/> Of songs to sing<br/> I can only serenade<br/> This open room<br/> Four walls a chasm at heart <br/> I'll continue to shine <br/> My light doesn't matter anymore <br/> I wish I could come through <br/> But it meant jack nothing to you<br/> <br/> But it's empty <br/> I lost you<br/> Hope you continue the shine<br/> Angel light not mine <br/> A cold void<br/> A cold drink of the void <br/> I wish I could come through <br/> To death grips <br/> Carrion hope<br/> Just the one with the broken smile<br/> Just the one with the broken smile<br/> Just the one with the broken smile<br/> <br/> The sea was a little obtuse <br/> Twelve <br/> Twelve long minutes <br/> Twelve minutes <br/> Twelve minutes too long<br/> Twelve seasons <br/> Twelve seasons past <br/> My swansong<br/> <br/> Diatribes irrelevance <br/> It meant nothing <br/> All hollow<br/> All uninspired <br/> All way too long<br/> All not long enough <br/> Way too late <br/> Still too early<br/> Inconvenient time<br/> Inconvenient timing of<br/> The breath and a silence<br/> Somewhere <br/> <br/> Suddenly beyond <br/> Somewhere between<br/> Life and death<br/> The air and a joke <br/> Only a punch line<br/> Broken smile<br/> <br/> Oh look I'm still dancing <br/> But no one shows up to laugh<br/> Will you hold me in your<br/> Conscience <br/> If I run out of songs to sing<br/> I can only serene this <br/> Open wounds <br/> Four walls and a chasm<br/> In my chest<br/> I hope you continue to shine
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
Save my soul <br/> I'm sinking in the sadness <br/> I have fallen<br/> Into all the madness <br/> <br/> And I'm running from myself <br/> Someone save me from my hell <br/> And I'm drowning in the madness <br/> Created in my head <br/> Nothing more left to say<br/> Carry me down <br/> Rebuild me now <br/> <br/> I'm running away<br/> From the things<br/> That shackled me to my mistakes <br/> I'll cling to my cross <br/> You can have the world <br/> I once foresaw as lost <br/> I'll pick up my cross <br/> Cause I've counted all the cost <br/> And I'll keep on<br/> Fighting when <br/> It all seems lost <br/> It all seems lost<br/> <br/> It is not yet time <br/> To falter<br/> My friend <br/> We just never want<br/> I'm not losing myself <br/> So I'll rise above it all<br/> I'll cling to something <br/> More than <br/> <br/> I'd journey <br/> Either way <br/> The run <br/> Not far to go<br/> I'll keep pushing<br/> Light save my soul <br/> <br/> I'm running away<br/> From the things<br/> That shackled me to my mistakes <br/> I'll cling to my cross <br/> You can have the world <br/> I once foresaw as lost <br/> I'll cling to my cross <br/> Cause I've counted all the cost <br/> And I'll keep on<br/> Fighting when <br/> It all seems lost <br/> It all seems lost<br/> Fight until the pain <br/> Becomes a weapon <br/> Of the light
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
Rediscover <br/> Black on white tips<br/> The rush of a burn <br/> Couldn't stay up all night<br/> Friday in winter<br/> Do I have a choice <br/> Shining I'll throw up<br/> At the sight that we had<br/> <br/> But we have no benefit<br/> I'll never love again<br/> To you I'm just a man<br/> But to me you were cleansing<br/> Try to hold the canvas again <br/> I can't hardly paint <br/> I just wanted you to feel<br/> The love I felt from you <br/> <br/> Put the misery <br/> On the void<br/> I'm in now<br/> But those days<br/> Enclosed <br/> A picture left<br/> Better you and I <br/> I lost my faith <br/> I never wanted <br/> Eden broke when you left <br/> Was something insignificant <br/> Because the days are darker<br/> <br/> The daydream hurts <br/> The daydream hurts<br/> Hoping <br/> Only hope to make a fool <br/> All I ever wanted was to love <br/> Again<br/> But you cut the rope <br/> In the absence<br/> I'm scared<br/> Scared I'll never smile against <br/> I'll bet you think this song is about you <br/> Well it is <br/> <br/> Whenever day <br/> Feels like fate <br/> Pushed the pain inside <br/> A gray nothing <br/> Buried in work<br/> It only hurt when Id remember <br/> It only hurts in <br/> November through <br/> December <br/> And then ten other months <br/> To consider <br/> I'm sorry for everything <br/> Why was I unfit <br/> It's hard to erase <br/> When I only I have what I remember<br/> Starting in November
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
Missed the point of all of it<br/> We used to be holy inside <br/> But now the world <br/> Has gone to shit <br/> Nothing else to do <br/> But live in it <br/> This moment has become disgrace<br/> Disgrace<br/> <br/> Take soul from disgrace <br/> Help me see and live again<br/> The path we made <br/> Cleanse this <br/> <br/> World is coming down <br/> Like a live bomb ticking <br/> I can't seem to see past myself<br/> But I know that the world keeps spinning<br/> Everything is catching fire<br/> I don't want to stoke others fire<br/> We have become something much greater than what we used to be<br/> <br/> But without any sort of empathy and compassion <br/> We need by the means <br/> We keep deteriorating <br/> Until we find a change<br/> This is not an institute<br/> It's this rhetoric unglued World's coming to an end When it's our downfall<br/> <br/> I will hold the divine close to me<br/> It's the winds <br/> Right close to the storm <br/> I will witness rebirth <br/> I will hold the divine close to me<br/> It's the winds <br/> Right close to the storm <br/> I will never be back<br/> From the evil of the evil of the world<br/> <br/> I will never held back by the evil of this earth<br/> I will storm this place with the light<br/> Inferno guides my way<br/> with<br/> Inferno of the day<br/> of the coming one risen sun<br/> Therefore<br/> Principle of truth and reality it is he who created it <br/> With hope in his hands<br/> I will rise with the others and my sisters and brothers <br/> As we soon become the Christ<br/> Don' conform and run <br/> Won't conform or run
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
Raining again in my mind<br/> Calming the storm<br/> Inside I find<br/> Darkened clouds echo inside<br/> Retrospect blinding<br/> Sadness I find<br/> Will you remember me<br/> Slip to the ending<br/> Will you regret me<br/> <br/> Cause it's hard to face the end<br/> And now I'm struggling to see<br/> What it all means<br/> I break myself in two<br/> I hope we'll meet again<br/> This end is only temporary<br/> <br/> I'm drowning in the memories<br/> It's gray outside today<br/> I'm looking at this canvas<br/> It's leading me astray<br/> The end is coming quickly<br/> As you walk into the fray<br/> I cleanse my hands from anguish<br/> As time just slips away<br/> Time just slips away<br/> Growing colder everyday<br/> <br/> Cause it's hard to face the end<br/> And now I'm struggling to see<br/> What it all means<br/> I break myself in two<br/> I hope we'll meet again<br/> This end is only temporary
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026