Volition

I can only hope That everything you tell me is righteous Because I cannot see it all. I can only inherit it for my own safety With no revelation of what this all means I’ll keep believing there is something And only hope that I am living life with a meaning But who are you? Who are you, god? What am I looking for? Am I afraid to search so I can keep my image clean? Or should I cross this line, because I feel so alone? I’m only feeling alone. Am I the only one who feels like I’m living a perceived lie? With no revelation of what this all means I’ll keep believing there is something And I can hope I’m living life with a meaning Or am I living life for nothing?

Submitted by Lake of Tears — Apr 26, 2025

[Instrumental] [-A mother, who has guided the boy with love, hope, and truth, passes from this life.]

Submitted by Pestilence — Apr 18, 2026

My matriarch, my anchor Was the only thing to give me grasp and connection To what love was to me and what love could ever be. Instead you decimate my thoughts of what a loving being I could have been. Now I will never reach that high. She was the saint that had believed in me, Lord. She was the only saint that I had eyes for. You left me here, alone. What did I do? I was starting to put my faith in you! Could you not see that she was the only one that kept the single golden thread From being cut from truth? Nothing stays gold, or so I am told Now may I be so bold to say that this life is worth nothing! I am only so young, God. But you don’t even flinch to take away my matriarch, my anchor. Innocence is dead. My matriarch, my anchor…is dead.

I’m looking for answers. I’ve been told I can find it here. I’ve been praying, but I’m not feeling any better. I come to you to seek truth. Tell me now, why is she gone? “Sometimes the good Lord gives and takes away And we will never understand. You must know it is for a good intention” And for that, he has lost my attention To love a murderer. How can I forgive him for that? “Faith is a key to keep your head up high.” Even that has been a struggle. That’s reality. “But it is all for his plan I have faith in you, you know.” I’ve had enough of this reality. I’m ready to throw it out My hope, my faith, and yours. What makes you think I can still believe? “Then take your little faith out of my walls! I’ve had enough!” I was only finding comfort here. Now you have shunned. You’ve shunned me.

Submitted by Corpse Grinder — Apr 26, 2025

Is this what you call “the truth, way, and life?” To abolish the minds that won’t see eye to eye? Just know you’re no better than me, Whether I’m a child of God or not. You’re told to live and love, But instead, you try to think you’re above everyone. Well, to your god that has influenced you: I am no longer yours I will separate my mind from those Who have sacrificed themselves To be poisoned by your words That have never helped me. Is it hard to believe that I will not be like you, and I never will? You manipulator, you don’t control me anymore. You don’t control my mind, anymore.

Submitted by Iron_Wraith — Apr 26, 2025

I will not see eye to eye with mankind. Misanthropy is clouding my mind. With all the judgments surrounding me, How can I be pure again? The cynical ways are coming with full force. Will there ever be an end? If there was any hope in my heart, it faded away. It faded away, along with my only saint. As much as I want to believe in something, Whether it be for a god or for man, My hope has faded away. The question stirs in my head: Would I be going in this direction If the giant would have left me alone? The answer will be unknown I’m yearning for connection I don’t want to be alone, but I have no home. No can understand me, therefore no can save me. I can’t even save myself…

Submitted by MetalElf — Apr 26, 2025

As I walk in the black morning grave A man of wisdom is who I see. Not the one we talk about in the sky, But someone we spit on or deny Because of greed. (Because of me!) He is a man with something to prove And he has nothing to lose. And while I do nothing for anyone, anymore… He keeps firm for something greater. I must learn.

Submitted by NecroLord — Apr 26, 2025

A beggar with faith, I see. But as I can tell, you have lost everything. So what makes you keep believing? What keeps you from giving? Tell me now, because I need it more than ever! “I know with all that has gone away, you’d think that I would be filled with hate. The things I’ve witnessed are examples of How reality’s gear turns us. If we face reality, that’s when we’ll feel true. And with that, you will be able to find the truth.” So was it meant to be? To see the things I have seen? To lose what comforted me? “I’ve been in your position; given up on myself before What you can’t forget is everything happens for a reason. It’s hard to keep that in mind, But everything will be fine in the end.” Oh, how selfish I have been to think that I am nothing When you’re out on the roads, out in the cold, Where we throw our dignity! And yet, you still have hope for this world. “Just know you’re worth something All it takes is faith. I can only hope you have learned.”

Submitted by Nargaroth — Apr 26, 2025

Time has passed since I have encountered what I think is grace. Is this destiny putting me back on the track of faith? Is this destiny protecting me from seeing an early grave? It’s time to look forward. No more sorrow. But can I keep this up? Can I keep my head up this time? I finally feel sure of myself. (Poisoned by anger, frustration, lust, and self-gratification.) All the hate I had for this world, I’ve only found myself deep in the core now With my transgression. Distraction has been made my fixation. God, there’s no hope for me. There’s no truth I see. I feel no love from the skies above. So much for destiny and faith…

Coming to terms as an insatiable man After searching for all these years. It’s time to admit of my ignorance; I will not find her comfort here. I’ve wasted my youth searching for lies. No, nothing can save me now. With eyes closed, I speculate on what I called my own Before death decided to play its role. With eyes open, I realize that this world has nothing to offer All I have is hate! This world has nothing to offer. And I have no faith! This world has nothing to offer, So I will forsake my life! And I will end it tonight! This is my volition!

Submitted by Cyberwaste — Apr 26, 2025

“We both know that I am no comfort, no being anymore. But what you do not realize is that death…that death is only a beautiful way out of the restraints of our hardened lives. It is a sight. A rebirth. So release me! Because I have been released from your world and its sleep! We will reunite on my sanctity’s time…not yours.” Wake up.

Submitted by Sexy Gargoyle — Apr 26, 2025

You coward! You try to rid yourself from this life! With all the bitterness you had for this world, I know you had a heart of gold like you use to have…” “What have I done? I never showed care for my son. This is the consequence for my negligence.” “…I can only hope you use it well on the other side. But I will keep hoping you do not pass. So that it can be shared, so that your heart can be shared.” “I keep asking why you’re still in pain If you wear the scars of my mistakes. Oh, but I was wrong to throw you past my walls And wound you deeper still for questioning your faith. But no man’s doubts could ever change the truth And now I see how much you need to be in her arms forever… I can only hope you wake up from this sleep so you can be the angel she would want you to be Whether it’s here or up there. We can only hope!”

Submitted by Morgoth — Apr 26, 2025