Sleepless Remorse

Can you stay my children with me Lost in the past these memories I see Everyone I used to know I've seen them all taken they each had to go You're all I have now I am old The world outside so bitter cold so bitter cold Running in fields in summers distant haze I look back to childhood's long peaceful days Times in youth where I can never return I remember so clearly yet at a distance I yearn If only to step back for a time To feel but one of the things that I thought would always be mine always be mine I remember grandmother's face As she recalled her younger days She knew deep down as she spoke them to me Alone in these memories no-one could see Or feel with her the things she felt The past seemed so cold my children I feared growing old I feared growing old Can you stay my children with me Lost in the past these memories I see Everyone I used to know I've seen them all taken they each had to go they had to die Each time you leave I wish you could stay Yesterday's gone but I still have today If tomorrow I leave here and you see me no more Remember I loved you as you close one more door Each time you leave I wish you could stay Yesterday's gone but I still have today If tomorrow I leave here and you see me no more Remember I loved you as you close one more door Yesterday's gone You're all I have now I am old The world outside so bitter cold

Submitted by Sexy Gargoyle — Apr 26, 2025

The haunting distance of the past The closing in of final days Fear uncertain life beyond As woven colours fade to grey A faded tapestry of memories Hangs within a lonely mind Washed to grey by painful tears Tarnished by the empty years The haunting distance of the past The closing in of final days Fear uncertain life beyond As woven colours fade to grey Now can someone as they die Find hope from words taught as a child Where once these thoughts of tainted past Wrought sadness never meant to last The haunting distance of the past The closing in of final days Fear uncertain life beyond As woven colours fade to grey And now can someone as they die Find hope from words taught as a child Where once these thoughts of tainted past Wrought sadness never meant to last Human fragile reaching high At last the truth elusive found For this weak body death is nigh Yet souls believing never die The haunting distance of the past The closing in of final days Fear uncertain life beyond As woven colours fade to grey

Submitted by johnmansley — Apr 26, 2025

Try to survive as you shed many more tears Darkness once again no refrain Endless fears Within your mind still aware Of the truth and the lies Spirit willing flesh weak Again innocence dies The separation Crying God leave me I pray you'll realise Where many have cried The once forsaken old man that drove you insane Has seized you once more and holds you again The things you once loved Are sins you've since hated Where do you turn when you know you're falling Where can you escape from the pain of failing It seems as you wake left alone no one hears when you cry You find you've been used with no one In which to confide The separation Crying God leave me I pray you'll realise Where many have cried The once forsaken old man that drove you insane Has seized you once more and holds you again The things you once loved Are sins you've since hated But still you return you return Where can you go where he can't see you He knows how you fail but still never leaves you Where can you go where he'll not see you He knows how you fail but still he believes in you Forgiveness is real on the cross as blood flowed He took the sins of the world perfect love shown The cold empty feeling inside as you have denied Your love once pure once strong For the lamb has died The separation You can still return I pray you'll realise Where many have cried The once forsaken old man that drove you insane Has seized you once more and holds you again The things you once loved Are sins you've since hated But still you return

Submitted by Dahmers Fridge — Apr 26, 2025

They told me I would feel fine in a few days So confused people told me it was the only way Now all I feel is remorse My heart aches when I think about my child I can only imagine your face I let you be torn away from me in disgrace Now all around me is regrets Every morning I wish I could hold you in my arms Or see you sleep dream in peaceful calm But all I have is loneliness I cannot bear these thoughts oppressing me No-one told me I would feel like this How can I escape I'm sick with sorrow Has a baby just been slaughtered at my decree Does anyone else feel like me Why do you tell me these feelings are wrong That child was alive within me now he is gone In a few more days will the memories leave my head Of my child who was living who now is dead I cannot bear these thoughts oppressing me No-one told me I would feel like this How can I escape I'm sick with sorrow Has a baby just been slaughtered at my decree Does anyone else feel like me The nightmares still haunt me the sickness as I wake The repulsion I'm feeling is too much to take Visions of pain in sleepless night haziness Taking my mind morbid in craziness There is a reason for things I still feel So much unanswered wounds unhealed Many are the times words of comfort are spoken But still no release is here within my reach You can't hear me my child as I cry for you You could have had love that now far too late I can feel for you I have no-one to blame but myself I have no-one to take a share of the blame their words bring no comfort to me No this is not self pity Until I die will I remain the same God forgive me please forgive me Forgive us all God forgive me please forgive me Forgive us all God forgive me Forgive us all God forgive me please forgive me Forgive us all Forgive us Through these tears hear my cries Love and forgiveness I see in your eyes My sin and misery you took in my place Please release me by your healing grace Lord my refuge is found in your peace In your strength all my fears finally cease You bring healing where darkness brought harm I know the ones who died are resting in your arms

Submitted by Pestilence — Apr 26, 2025

Come now cast the first stone where you think I fell away Accuse with your sharp tongues come judge where I strayed Ill informed judges with hearts full of scorn Look away in your disgrace Seems no one is righteous no not even one mortal Perfection escapes us Sin is found in each one of us No-one is yet perfected And all flesh becomes dust Hearts full of wisdom with Christ's love and holiness Gentle in spirit never curse only bless And in their example lead those who have strayed Beckoning weak saints to return Their lives convicting the ones who have fallen away Perfection escapes us Sin is found in each one of us No-one is yet perfected And all flesh becomes dust Judge not lest ye be judged Bless those who would curse you Judge not lest ye be judgeed Curse not lest ye be cursed As I stoop to cast stones where others have fallen down Accusing for weakness as though none in me were found An ill informed judge I with heart full of scorn I look away in my disgrace Teach me to be righteous for Lord you are immortal Perfection escapes us Sin is found in each one of us No-one is yet perfected And all flesh becomes dust

Submitted by Nargaroth — Apr 26, 2025

Cold winter frost bites my face and hands As I fall into the darkest night as yet I have known Mind full of memories makes it's cruel demands How can I face another hour alone Is there no hope for me within my misery Pain bleeding despair Ceaseless for so long Many years gone Longing for release How can I begin again Be near me for I am alone As I fall into the darkest night as yet I have known Lord be my refuge in this hour of pain Please bring me glimpses of light through the rain In my mind can you see black rain falls down on me Pain bleeding despair Ceaseless for so long Many years gone Longing for release How can I begin again I'm still feeling the pain Longing empty within For me to die would be release I long to see my love again Beloved Lord I know you still hear my cries I am old and frail and I long to be set free All that I loved in this life has gone Reunite us in your arms soon in your kingdom I can now only see death as freedom for me Pain bleeding despair Ceaseless for so long Many years gone Longing for release How can I begin again Pain bleeding despair Ceaseless for so long Many years gone Longing for release How can I begin again As I face this lonely night Am I wrong longing to leave If it's your will for me to stay Lead me finally through this grief As I face this lonely night Am I wrong longing to leave If it's your will for me to stay Lead me finally through this Grief

Submitted by Celtic Frost — Apr 26, 2025

Impossible to know how it feels inside Imprisoned within emptiness believing lies All alone I still believed the truth God knows I fail again through constant pressure Within my mind the madness grows In this darkness a room is a prison cell Existing here without hope in a personal hell In this prison cell Aware of true potential but to have no way Of fulfilling all these dreams now ripped up thrown away Not to seek for symapathy but just to live Is this another wasted day I have no plans nothing to give In this darkness a room is a prison cell Existing here without hope in a personal hell In this prison cell Falling to the floor what have I become Staring through resticting walls has depression won Looking back to years long gone when hope was there Is this the way for everyone Or for a few is life unfair In this darkness a room is a prison cell Existing here without hope in a personal hell In this prison cell Stay with me until I see an end to the madness I pray to thee for I can see The four walls closing in Stay with me until I see an end to this cold sadness Oh be near me one day I know I'll see The four walls falling down

Submitted by Infernal Flame — Apr 26, 2025