Suicide Notes and Butterfly Kisses

Blow the last candle out Let the wax harden I wish I could stop crying I wish that someone still loved me (Blow the last candle out Let the wax harden I wish I could stop crying I wish that someone still loved me) Just breathe and focus How can I when the air is so cold and empty That my lungs froze right in my chest? I'll be honest The silver linings are getting harder and harder to manufacture And the smiles are so difficult to fake I'll be honest The silver linings are getting harder and harder to manufacture And the smiles are becoming so difficult for me to fake What do I have to do Or who do I have to kill To get what I want, what I need? What do I have to do Or who do I have to kill To get what I want, what I need? Happiness is an emotion I was born to this world without Nothing pleases me I can never be satiated Through this toil I will breed my own distress And destroy my best hopes; Fuck up the only things (that I love) (I watched my dreams die) I watched my aspirations crash into the ground On the backs of the angels that I've slain But I meant so well I tried so hard Gave every bit of my soul To what end? To what end? Desolation, desire, exhale, pass away Desolation, desire, exhale, pass away Desolation, desire, exhale, pass away

Submitted by Sexy Gargoyle — Feb 20, 2026

Yesterday I forgot to breathe For like the 6th time this week Maybe it was the pink cloud strafed sky That changed my mind And brought me back Seems like every day It's kill or be killed (With all this anger, we cannot progress) With all this anger There is no time to inhale and progress And catch the smell of something That you once knew 'Cause everyday it's bear the load Or break, when will it be too much? Have you ever stopped Raised your face up to the sun and screamed Let it out exhale the pain That strangulates your soul When will I be free? When will I be free? When will I be free? My lungs take in the fragrance of remorse What is the cost, am I living If you let your lungs fill up with pain Then you will drown Then you will drown in your own regret I am drowning in my own regret My arms feel so numb My heart palpitates missing a beat The blood freezing in my veins The taste of rust in my mouth So today I just threw it all away I just threw it all away Though the light burns my eyes I will not be blind If you blink you could miss so much Please don't ever close your eyes

Submitted by Sexy Gargoyle — Feb 20, 2026

It's so hard to see when your eyes are rolling In the back of your head It's even harder to speak when everything you say Just comes out wrong Gutted like a pig, all you want is the world to bleed Someone somewhere stole your desire The pain akin to, being punched in the throat And stabbed in the chest You would rather bleed than be without her Gone are the tender whispers dancing in your ears Replaced with lackluster memories you cry Your screams play in your empty room It's so hard to see when your eyes are rolling In the back of your head It's even harder to speak when everything you say Just comes out wrong Your bed swallows you whole As the days bleed together, torment on the lips Of a loved one, and if you try hard enough You can almost taste her, feel her pass and Scream, OH GOD WHY ME You would rather bleed than be without her Gone are the tender whispers dancing in your ears Replaced with lackluster memories you cry Your screams play in your empty room It's so hard to see when your eyes are rolling In the back of your head It's even harder to speak when everything you say Just comes out wrong

Submitted by Sexy Gargoyle — Feb 20, 2026

Go! Coward, the next time You want to fuck me over Stab me in the front Can I still see my future in your eyes Or can I picture myself Stone dead in your embrace And your cruel crimson smile Kills me quietly No one could have their moments Free from your withering touch... Fuck off like you're the only one Who has ever cried or been broken by love Spare me your pity party Drunk off your own misfortunes Wallowing in your blissful Melancholy Can you taste my blood? You knew that this would kill me But you carried on and on With your selfish shit Everyone cared about you Why couldn't you, instead your greed Compelled you To steal other silver linings Burnt down my world You killed my hope Spread out the ash and walked away How could you just Close off your eyes Turn tail and run You are the greatest coward Come on! Damn right I am still pissed... Next time I see you we will see Who has the upper hand Kiss my fist Taste the floor Tired of your games Fuck off goodbye

Submitted by Sexy Gargoyle — Feb 20, 2026

Starving, searching this barren wasteland Trying to grasp being this alone Pleading for a breath of fresh air, someone's standing on my chest Dying I'm asphyxiating myself (I kill myself) Break myself, slave to my weakness, choke on my words Oh I'm drowning and I feel so alone Break myself, slave to my weakness, choke on my words The lights are on and I wish I was home Break myself, slave to my weakness, choke on my words Oh I'm drowning and I feel so alone Break myself, slave to my weakness, choke on my words The lights are on and I wish I was home My lips are screaming pretty nothings My ears are bleeding for want of words (Fuck words I need actions) Hope has left me fucking shattered Someone's standing on my chest Alone would be a pleasant change from here Go! How do you gauge loneliness? How do you gauge loneliness? How do you gauge loneliness? Have you ever felt so alone? It feels like the light will never reach me here I am choking back my longing for shed tears So strangulated by my lonesome fears Please don't worry too much It only hurts when I breathe This only hurts every time I breathe (When I breathe) It only hurts when I breathe

Submitted by Sexy Gargoyle — Feb 20, 2026

Lift up a stone and you will find him Cherish the beauty in the world around us Not in buildings or crosses made by man Judge me, fuck you, stop playing god Your forked tongue prophecies Carelessly caressing the wounds of the weak People like you should be crucified Then maybe, just maybe, you would have an idea Of what you are talking about My only solace is that one day Judgment will come for the wicked, then we will see who burns My only solace is that one day Judgment will come for the wicked, then we will see who burns Raise your heads, unclasp your hands Your weakness makes me tremble True strength comes from within And we were given this life to live Not exist under standards Set by some bullshit rule book What prayers of yours, were ever answered, by degrading others Spare me your biblical back peddling nonsense For the people that you've hurt, and the being you dishonor Your fall from grace will finally justify my means Judge me and now you are me and what's worse You are now a traitor to your god Tell me Judas, how does it feel to be looked down upon Sinners like you should be strung up from the highest tree My only solace is that one day Judgment will come for the wicked, then we will see who burns My only solace is that one day Judgment will come for the wicked, then we will see who burns Raise your heads, unclasp your hands Your weakness makes me tremble True strength comes from within And we were given this life to live Not exist under standards Set by some bullshit rule book You judged me and now you are me, stop playing god You judged me and now you are me, stop playing god

Submitted by Sexy Gargoyle — Feb 20, 2026

Crystal clear I see the rose is frail The thorns hide easily in its beauty As I go to grasp it in my hand My heart is torn beating from my chest Let me be captivated By your beauty Then let me fall from your grace Unto my broken knees Close my eyes so tightly The tears are welling up You aren't worth the waste Of the salt or the water Watch the sun play in your hair And I couldn't really care Care any less about you Watch the sun play in your hair I couldn't really care Care any less about you Fuck all your false beauty It was transparent just like your smile, liar Your thorns caress my flesh Crimson drops on a snowy field, liar I have watched you retrogress I seen what you've become, liar Please take your eyes off of me It's funny how fast blue eyes fade to gray, liar Let me be captivated by your beauty And then let me fall from your grace Unto my broken knees Close my eyes so tightly The tears are welling up You aren't worth the waste Of the salt or the fucking water And you are deceit Just wither away, real beauty is forever in you Just wither away, real beauty is forever in you Just wither away, real beauty is forever in you Just wither away, real beauty is forever in you

Submitted by Sexy Gargoyle — Feb 20, 2026

I am the walking dead heartbreaker, my apologies I'm happy you'll never understand, what it's like to be Trapped under six feet of, solid glass I can see out, but no one gets in Screaming at this prison, I've locked myself into I'm sorry that I'm still breathing, and that I'll kill again But the loneliness is too much, for me to handle But the taste for fresh blood, pushes me on I told myself the constant pain would ease the tension burning inside But the nights were cold and the days dragged to weeks I will die, here alone, I will die The fear of romance The pain of living The joy of sorrow The strength of not forgiving The fear of romance The pain of living The joy of sorrow The strength of not forgiving God help me, I'm so tired But in my dreams the wolves eat out my soul God help me, I'm so frightened But in my dreams wolves tear out my heart I used to be golden, a saint in a time of sorrow But then the turning came, and I kissed the sun goodbye Don't you get it, it's always darker in my eyes The screams of my brothers egging me on

Submitted by Sexy Gargoyle — Feb 20, 2026

You! If I gave you pretty enough words Could you paint a picture of us that works? An emphasis on function rather than design Aren't you tired? 'Cause I will carry you On a broken back and blown out knees I have been where you are for a while Aren't you tired of being weak? Such rage that you could scream All the stars right out of the sky And destroy the prettiest starry night Every evening that I die I am exhumed Just a little less human and a lot more bitter and cold I am exhumed Just a little less human and a lot more bitter and cold I am exhumed Just a little less human and a lot more bitter and cold I am exhumed Just a little less human After all these images of pain Have cut right through you I will kiss every scar And weep you are not alone Then I'll show you that place In my chest where my heart Still tries to beat It still tries to beat Aren't you tired of being weak? Such rage that you could scream All the stars right out of the sky And destroy the prettiest starry night Every evening that I die Live, love, burn, die Live, love, burn, die Live, love, burn, die Live, love, burn, die

Submitted by Sexy Gargoyle — Feb 20, 2026