Cross to Bear
Allow no joy Because I am only me when I bereave all my warmth pushed below the surface Allow no joy, no exhilaration I do not feel like me, anymore You are my cross to bear yet I pushed you away when you came back for me I would have died for you but now that you’re gone I should have died for you I’m still dying for you I will not let myself be subsumed You’re haunting every waking moment This trauma bonds - this world denies my actualization I will not believe that this is me! I don’t even know if you are real I cannot feel the same detail anymore I could almost breathe but you held me under You held me For all of our sakes and our future selves despite what I said I pray this is not the end The end has come But now that you’re gone my yearning has only grown...
Submitted by Finntroll — Apr 26, 2025