Haji’s Kitchen
Album • 2001
I wanted to be here, you feel the same way Try your understanding ways upon me now And then the day will come when you Will try to force me to Killing all my dreams, forever and after I can't believe I ever survived I can't believe I ever survived I can't believe I ever survived I can't believe I ever survived Now the things that I've replaced The subtle wantings of the memories I've saved Are building on my wall Defeating all the peace I've come to live with My serenity I waste, forever after I can't believe I ever survived I can't believe I ever survived I can't believe I ever survived I can't believe I ever survived I can't believe I ever survived I can't believe I ever survived I can't believe I ever survived I can't believe I ever survived I never wanted you Never wanted me Never wanted any of this I never wanted you Never wanted me Never wanted any of this I can't believe I ever survived I can't believe I ever survived I can't believe I ever survived I can't believe I ever survived I can't believe I ever survived I can't believe I ever survived I can't believe I ever survived I can't believe I ever survived
Submitted by Nargaroth — Feb 07, 2026
Thirteen years, my head aches No one cares Well, my blood boils Filth stained ears My body shakes, hiding from my fears Slowly slipping, gripping reality's hand Never feeling, showing only what I am Son I am Son I am Silent stares, my head aches No one cares Well, my blood boils Run, but where? Well, my body shakes Coping with my fear Slowly slipping, gripping reality's hand Never feeling, showing only what I am Son I am Son I am Stop fucking with me Thirteen years Thirteen years Thirteen years Thirteen years, my head aches No one cares Well, my blood boils Filth stained ears My body shakes Coping with my fear, forever Slowly slipping, gripping reality's hand Never feeling, showing only what I am Son I am Son I am Son I am Son I am
Submitted by Nargaroth — Feb 07, 2026
"Alright! The llama on the mountain has a rash." Lay in the summer fields I feel the warmth I feel the waiting Lashing out, back and forth I've seen the sun I've seen the shaking You calculate your hatred Master of the complicated You fucked my head up major Left me hanging cold and naked I've been asleep for years The gentle burning My inner savior Pacing now, back and forth The "real life" one You said you were mature You calculate your hatred Master of the complicated You fucked my head up major Left me hanging cold and naked You calculate your hatred Master of the complicated You fucked my head up major Left me hanging cold and naked Lay in the summer fields I feel the warmth I feel the waiting Lashing out, back and forth I've seen the sun I've seen the shaking You calculate your hatred Master of the complicated You fucked my head up major Left me hanging cold and naked You calculate your hatred Master of the complicated You fucked my head up major Left me hanging cold and naked
Submitted by Nargaroth — Feb 07, 2026
As I look deep into your eyes I feel your hatred building up inside Faded words of so many heartbeats Echoing with glorious lies There's nothing here And nothing there You're headed for something Don't be so blind You will never be open You're hoping to find Well, the key You will never be something You're nothing just like me Well, like me Take a look down at all your friends And all the time you spent in misery Tell me how you can justify your standing On a cloud up in the sky Now you know how people change You won't be glad You won't be strange Is that so, so hard to see? There's nothing here And nothing there You're headed for something Don't be so blind You will never be open You're hoping to find Well, the key You will never be something You're nothing just like me Well, like me Faded words of so many heartbeats Echoing with glorious lies There's nothing here And nothing there You're headed for something Don't be so blind You will never be open You're hoping to find Well, the key You will never be something You're nothing just like me Well, like me You will never be open You're hoping to find Well, the key You will never be something You're nothing just like me Well, like me
Submitted by Nargaroth — Feb 07, 2026
Fake the part again I'm the saint who spared the blood again Touch my soul It's too late to die again On my way to save the child again Oh, my Lord Wanna feel me? Wanna plant my words? Wanna fill me in to all that has gone wrong? Wanna feel me? Let me plant my words Wanna fill me in to all that has gone wrong? Carry this grudge I've held so long Can't breathe through this mask very well Blame the part again I'm the one who said you'd live again Touch my soul It's too late to die again On my way I came to die, my friend Now I'm Lord Wanna feel me? Wanna plant my words? Wanna fill me in to all that has gone wrong? Wanna feel me? Let me plant my words Wanna fill me in to all that has gone wrong? Carry this grudge I've held so long Can't breathe through this mask very well Hardly have time to count my thoughts Run free through fields of violent red Carry this grudge I've held so long Can't breathe through this mask very well Hardly have time to count my thoughts Run free through fields of violent red I've been through nothing better I've been through this, my friend I've been through nothing better I'll never breathe again
Submitted by Nargaroth — Feb 07, 2026
Crawling below from me Wanting to know for me Return down to your knees I've been the priest I've been the freak I don't wanna feel the light on my face I don't wanna leave this life alone Come along and feel the strength of my hate Try not to leave this life alone Searching the road to nowhere Preaching the word of nothing Return down to your knees I've been the priest I've been the freak I don't wanna feel the light on my face I don't wanna leave this life alone Come along and feel the strength of my hate Try not to leave this life alone I don't wanna feel the light on my face I don't wanna leave this life alone Come along and feel the strength of my hate Try not to leave this life alone I don't wanna feel the light on my face I don't wanna leave this life alone Come along and feel the strength of my hate Try not to leave this life alone
Submitted by Nargaroth — Feb 07, 2026
No surprise Now close your eyes This feeling's so new The years, they fall like rain Tragedy, the sorrow you bring I hope and pray, this feeling will go away You step on me You bury me with love, again You shed on me You sure did Take, all that I have left and Give, all the strain I feel Now that it's unreal Now that I've waited so long Take, all that I have left and Give, all the strain I feel Now that it's unreal Now that I've waited so long Torn within A new world begins Temptations of you I hear you whispering Thorn in disguise I won't hear your cries The memories of you Don't seem to go away You step on me You bury me with love, again You shed on me You sure did take it Take, all that I have left and Give, all the strain I feel Now that it's unreal Now that I've waited so long Take, all that I have left and Give, all the strain I feel Now that it's unreal Now that I've waited so long You step on me You bury me with love, again You shed on me You sure did take it Take, all that I have left and Give, all the strain I feel Now that it's unreal Now that I've waited so long Take, all that I have left and Give, all the strain I feel Now that it's unreal Now that I've waited Take all I am Give, all I give is alone inside of you Take what I am What I give is alone inside of you Take
Submitted by Nargaroth — Feb 07, 2026
Look, I've been inside I've been alive in a better time From the center stage the choice was made I've seen it fade Medicate Abbreviate your life because it seems so hollow Can't wait another day Your hate becomes so real to swallow Need, I've seen it too I've seen in you, the bitter you Come, the things you'll know The things you'll see, you'll see in me Need a piece of now, a piece of then I've seen the end Some, the enlightened few I've heard the news, they're just like you Medicate Abbreviate your life because it seems so hollow Can't wait another day Your hate becomes so real to swallow Medicate Abbreviate your life because it seems so hollow Can't wait another day Your hate becomes so real to swallow Look, I've been inside I've been alive in a better time From the center stage the choice was made I've seen it fade Medicate Abbreviate your life because it seems so hollow Can't wait another day Your hate becomes so real to swallow Medicate Abbreviate your life because it seems so hollow Can't wait another day Your hate becomes so real to swallow
Submitted by Corpse Defiler — Feb 17, 2026
I'll take it slow Some things you'll never know I've got so many secrets on my mind You were amazed That day, it never came Now all I'm asking for is one more try You were nothing You were nothing to me You were nothing to me, one more time It's all the same Some things you'll never change The peace of insanity is on my mind What's in a name? For all this, you were to blame Been chasing sanity for all my life You were nothing You were nothing to me You were nothing to me, one more time You were nothing You were nothing to me You were nothing to me, one more time I'll take it slow Some things you'll never know I've got so many secrets on my mind You were amazed That day, it never came Now all I'm asking for is one more try You were nothing You were nothing to me You were nothing to me, one more time You were nothing You were nothing to me You were nothing to me, one more time You were nothing You were nothing to me You were nothing to me, one more time Take it slow Take it slow
Submitted by Nargaroth — Feb 07, 2026
So close to something Can't help but wonder Afraid of nothing Fall into freedom Can't find the way down Can't find the way back home I lay, solemnly Step into reason I've seen the answers Never wanting one or the other Can't find the way down Can't find the way back home I lay, solemnly Left my head in the clouds Never coming down here So close to something Can't help but wonder Afraid of nothing Fall into freedom Can't find the way down Can't find the way back home I lay, solemnly Left my head in the clouds Never coming down here
Submitted by Nargaroth — Feb 07, 2026
I despise all All the wasted time I I can't deny how unfaithfully true it was And now I try to untangle the webs we weaved And think twice, "Why?" The hand in the jar was mine I want something I need something I want, I want I need something I want something I need something I want, I want I need something Take it all in As it comes in waves to me I try to call out At what used to be mine And now I fall I've fallen from grace It occurs to me that nothing's forever I try to disguise my pride I want something I need something I want, I want I need something I want something I need something I want, I want I need something Well, you can't take this from me The blood is washed from my hands Well, try and take this from me Well, you can't take this from me Don't forget me Try and reach into it far and wide Well, you can't see into to me, into nothing Went in too low Went in too fast But you don't know Well, you can't take this from me Don't try Don't hide You'll find me inside you I want something I need something I want, I want I need something I want something I need something I want, I want I need something I want something I need something I want, I want I need something Don't forget me Try and reach inside
Submitted by NecroGod — Feb 15, 2026
Little things in life, they seem to come and go How could I be there? How could I be so low? Try to get it right, that's how the story goes It seems so easy I swear the truth, I've told it over and over I've been here for most of the night Why don't you believe me, believe me? I've wasted the best of my life Why don't you believe me, believe me? Far and in between, this innocence I've stole You've proven nothin', it'll bury with my bones Ordinary ties, they bind the mind and soul It seems so easy I swear the truth, I've told it over and over I've been here for most of the night Why don't you believe me, believe me? I've wasted the best of my life Why don't you believe me, believe me? I've been here for most of the night Why don't you believe me, believe me? I've wasted the best of my life Why don't you believe me, believe me? Little things in life, they seem to come and go How could I be there? How could I be so low? Try to get it right, that's how the story goes It seems so easy I swear the truth, I've told it over and over I've been here for most of the night Why don't you believe me, believe me? I've wasted the best of my life Why don't you believe me, believe me? Yeah, yeah Yeah, yeah Yeah, yeah
Submitted by Pestilence — Feb 07, 2026
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