Pain Olympics

I walked into The brightest blue An indiscernible shade I look back to You on the shore Your smile starts to fade Take a deep breath Plunge my face in Taste the salt All alone now Grain of sand Drifting I look for you in stars You are a constellation Waiting to be found Always told us not to worry Pops I really try My tears seem never ending And I see you in my eyes The darkness seems to grow these days It’s loss and loss and loss I've just been.. I've been very sad Thinking about All the chances I had Tell you I love you Now you’re gone And I feel.. I feel I like this is the type of ache That may not go away Pain has built a home inside of me

Submitted by Nargaroth — Feb 23, 2026

Total agony, cruel hellscape Bad back, pouring rain What the fuck, bills are due today? What the fuck is all this doing to me? Doesn’t matter, phone rings Nothing good, whiskey drink Feet hurt, I'm fucking tired Brain fried but I don’t mind Put the gun Back in your pocket Pet a dog Smoke some weed Everything will be okay Just as long as I disintegrate Wait, where am I? Where am I? Fuck all you motherfuckers I'll take the soup and salad to go Eat shit, die quick Where's my fucking tooth? I'm coming back for that thing I'm coming back for that thing

Submitted by Nargaroth — Feb 23, 2026

Dead friends Dead cats It’s never ending Dead moms Dead dads The world is ending Dissociate I'm not here Dancing in place My head is caving They say relax My heart is breaking Dissociate I'm not here

Submitted by Nargaroth — Feb 23, 2026

It is just skin Dressing a cage Getting in the way

Submitted by Nargaroth — Feb 23, 2026

"How's it going?" Oh, just fine! Blending the line Reality / Fiction Honey, surprise: It’s my own crucifixion Hollow out my eyes Hollow out my eyes Fill 'em with these flowers Just don't even ask me "How's it going?" Oh, just fine! I'm just, I'm just trying to make sense of what's going on here, ya know? I've been thinking, I've been thinking a lot about control And I don’t think I've ever had it Bashing my face Into logic and reason Autopilot: Disengage Crash into it anyway Existential dread invades Watch me throw my heart away Breaking my back to Make poorer decisions I don't usе it anyway Broken but it never fadеs Rarely did me any good Take it, take it, go away I wake up in a pond of blood The flies beside me having a heated conversation One expounding a powerful argument I couldn't quite understand Something about silent films I lurch up and feel a painful reminder That gored hole in my chest What got me here? What changed? What got me here? What changed?

Submitted by Nargaroth — Feb 23, 2026

My funeral dress is now a gown Hangs off bones, it's in tatters now Deliver me, baby Dead trees to salted seas I've been watching you with eyes downcast Twisted roads and heart attacks Never really know how to be So I just cease to be Hard to say, hard to be Hard to know for sure of anything Hard to say, hard to be Hard to know for sure of anything I stare and stare at this wall I stare and stare at this wall I stare and stare at this wall And I wait for you, I wait for you

Submitted by Nargaroth — Feb 23, 2026

Lovely Lonely What a lonely day What a lonely way What a lovely day To be frightened of Every single thing Paralyzed by living All my bones are giving in And oh I can’t relax Panic leans in “I will find you drifting in the dark Scared and unaware of who you are The wind is just a whisper in the air Wondering if you are really there” You hold your breath and count the ways in which All of this could go so very wrong And it will

Submitted by Nargaroth — Feb 23, 2026

Quantifying years Alien and sick Stagnant and unforgiving I’ll miss you I’ll miss you All these ghosts around No one compares to you No one compares to you

Submitted by Nargaroth — Feb 23, 2026

Wasting I am wasting I am wasting I am wasting Into nothing Fucking nothing Total absence Of the self Those dancing eyes My buckled knees I'm choked up Red and pathetic Oh, the terror, the yearning I couldn’t do it Crashed headlong Into another bad phone call Am I a ghost? A tortured ending? Another letter not worth sending? I couldn't do it, I changed my mind I couldn't do it, I changed my mind I was a joke you didn't get I was a joke you'll soon forget

Submitted by Nargaroth — Feb 23, 2026

Wait Wait a minute Constant dissection Of conscious reflection Has led you to act in Imagined attractions And it’s not lookin good It’s not looking good It’s when you started hopin’ That’s when you gave up When it all became so overwhelming So absolutely fucked When your heart stopped singing And your brain stays home Face in a pillow and ear on a dead phone Maybe there’s a reason We suffer endlessly Maybe there’s a god up there Testing all his sheep Or maybe god’s a sadist Who loves his juicy meats O’ maybе there is nothing therе There is nothing there And nothings fair I know you want a happy ending No one. Wants. To. Die pretending Maybe we live in hell Cursed to burn and reason Maybe I'm a pile of shit who thinks it is a human The sun rises each day A reminder I am nothing An insignificant pile of skin In a pained brain neverending

Submitted by Nargaroth — Feb 23, 2026