A Farewell to Nothing: The Diary Part 1

My life's a symphony of tragedy Don’t know if I'm alive Or am I dreaming It is a symphony of agony And hate is all I live for Can’t take it anymore Haunted by memories from long ago I see them with my own eyes Yet I am blinded Everytime I lay me down I see it all I see the sorrow That has been haunting me Now I know why it feels so cold Now I know why I can't live When I'm awake there is no light shining inside of me Cause I'm blinded And when I sleep I can see everything within me Cause I'm blinded When I'm awake I don't believe that I'm alive Or am I dreaming... ..Don't wanna wake up I don’t believe that I am dead I am alive when I am dreaming It's all a mystery All I see are the shadows That surround me and they call me Oh please forgive me I'm so alone and I am scared Oh please take me to the other side And guide me to the light

Submitted by johnmansley — Apr 25, 2025

I see my own reflection in the mirror And something is coming closer So close I can feel them surrounding me It s getting colder it's getting darker I can hear them whisper my name I can hear them speak the words I can hear them preach about suicide They are telling me what to do And they are telling me how to do it To end my life and to enter the beautiful shining light Just one step closer to eternity Just one step closer to infinity I'm slowly starting to face away To fade away and die I've reached the end of the line All I want is to close my eyes and sleep All I want is to fade away and die I've reached the end of the line All I want is to end my painful life I'm standing here at the end of the line My own reflection is slowly fading And the voices are getting stronger I cannot take the pain I cannot take it anymore I'm surrounded by all the shadows I'm surrounded by the beautiful darkness Just one more step and I will finally fall Into the endless sleep

Submitted by Corpse Defiler — Apr 25, 2025

I am a mystery Living in a life of sorrow I am a blasphemy Why can’t you see That I'm a trail of chaos I am a sacrilege A fading light Somewhere in the shadows I am a living lie Trapped in a circle of sadness With the mirror as my only friend Come closer can't you see me Come closer can’t you feel me The mirror never lies I've got no reflection still I see the sorrow The mirror never cries Yet I see the tears from the face in front of the mirror The mirror the mirror never lies Have I lost my mind Or is it over now 'Cause I can’t see my own reflection in the mirror I am the circle of madness I am the one who calls you I am the garden of Eden A lonely shadow Don't you know who I am I am the child in the mirror An empty face I am the chaos around you I am the face in the mirror Why can’t you see The mirror never lies

Submitted by Finntroll — Apr 25, 2025

Hear me cry See the tears of endless sorrow Hear me call My voice is whispering softly from the shadows Calling you To come and see me Come and see me fade away I'm crawling here beneath you I'm trying to hide my hate I'm trying so hard to forgive you But you never hear what I say I still believe That you will someday hear my prayers And show me the way And guide me out of this misery Why do I pray every night before I go to sleep Why can't you hear my prayers Why do I say these words when you never hear me Why do I pray when I don't believe Why do I pray every night why do I cry every night Why can't you hear me cry I can’t take it anymore I can't live anymore Why can’t you hear my prayers When I'm praying I'm always crying I'm calling out your name I fade into a state of mind That really drives me insane You give me no answer I'll never be forgiven You'll never stop me Stop me now from fading away

Submitted by VladTheImpaler666 — Apr 25, 2025

Waking up to another day of misery Waking up to another day of sorrow Why didn't god let me die in my sleep Oh death embrace me I dream of a place where I can breathe I dream of a place where I am safe I'm so alone and I cannot live Another day on my own I've seen the eyes of god I've seen the face of light I've seen it all in my dreams I've seen it all in my dreams I've seen myself on the other side I've seen it all in my dreams I see it all when I sleep I've seen it all in my dreams Here I am in a world of insanity Here I am in the middle of nowhere Cast out from this garden of Eden My eyes are closed and I am dreaming Locked up in a state of madness Welcome to my world of depression Here I am so lost and so alone Can't someone take away my pain

Submitted by Nargaroth — Apr 25, 2025

I wake up screaming and I wake up crying I see the scars are back on my arms What have I done 'cause I can't remember Something remains in my dreams When I sleep there is someone who haunts me Someone who's cold and alone He is always standing behind me So please wake me up from this dream Wake me up when I sleep Why is he calling my name Why is he telling me to follow him Ending this life I've been given In his eyes I can see all the sorrow and pain So please wake me up from this dream Wake me up when I sleep Don't you ever speak, don't you ever speak the words It's just another lie I don't believe you when you're telling me the truth It's just another lie Another lie Don’t you ever speak, don't you ever speak the words It's just another lie My own reflection reminds me Of the life I've been living Living in sorrow and sadness All those bleeding scars and wounds that I have Reminds me of a life without meaning Promises are given from the shadow within me Telling me do not be afraid I am living on the edge of insanity So please wake me up from this dream

Submitted by NecroGod — Apr 25, 2025

So lonely So far away So silent I can t hear no breathing So many empty promises So many fading dreams Why do I feel so alone Oh god why can't you see The silence within me Is slowly breaking me Just like the shadows that are surrounding me The silence within me Oh can’t you see that I am crying My life has come to an end The silence within me Why do I still believe Why do I still believe I'll be forgiven All my life I've been living in sadness All my life I've been hiding in the shadows

Submitted by Finntroll — Apr 25, 2025

In the darkness I see them I hear what they say I know I've been losing my mind Telling me stories And telling me lies And god has left me all alone In the shadows I'm hiding Away from it all Screaming for someone to hear I'm falling apart I'm fading away Remember the time that we had Don't forget me This is my last farewell Time is not on my side I can’t believe that I'm falling I can’t believe I'll be gone My last farewell Can't go on with my life I can't believe that I'm dying I can't believe that I'm slowly fading away I'm lying all alone Screaming for you Tell me how to believe No one can save me No one can feel The pain that drives me insane Now I know that it's over I know I have lost The will to carry on dreaming Staring at shadows Crying alone Take this life and take away all the sorrow

Submitted by Nargaroth — Apr 25, 2025

Suicide is the only thing I'm living for You are the only thing I ever dream Suicide is the only thing I'm praying for You are the only thing I ever need I can feel you within me I can feel you surrounding me Suicide is the only friend I ever need You are the only one And only you can save me Show me now Show me everything I need to know I cannot do it by myself I'm calling you I can feel you within me I can feel you surrounding me That's why I need you to save me You are my everything You are the one for me I cannot live without you That’s why I need you to save me You are the one I need You are so beautiful Only you can heal me That’s why I need you to save me Suicide is the only thing I'm waiting for You're in my dreams and you are everywhere Suicide is the only way for me to live You are the only thing I ever need I can feel you within me I can feel you surrounding me You let me dream about the afterlife You let me dream about eternity You let me dream about my sacrifice Here I am beyond insanity

Submitted by NecroGod — Apr 25, 2025

Oh I beg you to remember To remember Don't forget what I've done Don't say goodbye Don't leave me all alone with myself Oh I beg you to remember To remember Don't believe in what they say Don't believe in what they preach Don’t believe a word Here I dwell in the shadows They are calling me I see them in the darkness Screaming out in agony Come watch me bleed come watch me die Too late to say goodbye Too late to say I'm sorry I can't believe that no one is here to heal me So please just take me away from here Too late to say forgive me Too late to ask me why Can't cry any more, I can’t live any more So come and watch me die Come watch me bleed Everytime I look into the mirror Everytime I look into my eyes I'm filled with sorrow And I know for sure it's the last thing I ever do I see shadows hiding in the dark I see faces gathering around me I let them close the circle Come watch me bleed come watch me die

Submitted by NecroLord — Apr 25, 2025

Yet another sleepless night Yet another night without dreaming I never felt like this before So close but still so far away I'm reaching out But you turn and walk away from me Don't you leave me all alone Don't you walk away from me Don't you turn your back on me I cannot live my life like this I see it so clearly now I have opened up my eyes I'm waiting for my endless sleep Waiting for the moment To leave it all behind I watch my shadow fall Now I'm all alone Nothing more to live for It's time to leave it all behind I watch my shadow fall I'll be dying all alone No one to save me I don't wanna die Yet I don't wanna live How can I believe What the mirror shows me The mirror tells no lies Behind the mask I'm truly scared Now I'm all alone I've got nothing more to say or do Can't believe that you betrayed me You left me here without ever saying goodbye

Submitted by Lake of Tears — Apr 25, 2025

I see myself Standing there So lost and lonely No one can see me I'm reaching out But they all just turn away Who have I become Who's the man That I see in the mirror A dark cold reflection Staring back And it won't leave me alone They hear me cry They see my tears They feel my pain They say that time heals all the wounds Why do I cry I cry myself to sleep every night I don't believe That someone will come And take away my pain Why do I live I see me lying there And all these faces Staring down at me They whisper something That I can not hear But still I understand So silently I turn around And I'm looking into my own eyes Desperately I close my eyes and cry

Submitted by Grave666 — Apr 25, 2025