The Nameless Disease

A deep frustration’s running through my veins, A dark light’s entering the church By pale glass windows And I feel so cold. I can’t stop looking at the wooden box placed In the very centre of the nave. I’m trying to imagine you... ...Sleeping. We’re in the home Of life and death, Where each being takes end. And time flows with the sand! We cry as one, Your friends, your family. Death has stained this day. And now he’s gone away. I think you would be smiling Listening to this priest today Before his church. I can still remember Your songs about Christendom and slavery. I can’t realise! Death before my eyes! Listening to this sermon’s lies! He’s never seen you! He’s never talked to you! How can his white lies be true? But I have to understand, This prayer that pays tribute too It’s not here to be true, but to help us go through The deep pain that we bear, the way we all suffer. Our dreams of paradise get the pain out of our minds.

Submitted by MetalElf — Apr 25, 2025

I have just opened my eyes I slowly start to realise... It can’t be! How many times did you fight up to now? For how long have you prepared your withdrawal? I could not have predicted this outcome my friend I had better close my eyes once more again... (Be)cause it can’t be I have just opened my eyes (again) But I don’t want to realise. I can still remember the sound of your voice, You looked better, you can’t have made this choice No It can’t be! I can not stand the idea That you have been so silent Eaten by your own pain You tried suicide again My brother, my old friend, It can not be the end Of your smiles when your face was shining with joy, Of these hours we spent, speaking about our great band.

Submitted by Dahmers Fridge — Apr 25, 2025

Sometimes I try to realise that you are gone. Sometimes I think that I’ll never, (Can’t) go on alone. An endless fight, to look normal, to be funny. I can only paint deadly smiles on my poor face, My poor face... How could you leave us so suddenly? How will we live? How could you leave us so suddenly? How will I live? I’m so angry with you, How could you Hide your pain this way? I’m so angry with myself, How could I Be so blind? Every morning the same nightmare Won’t I wake up? It’s the worst pain I’ve ever felt: You’ve given up, given up... Because you hated life as life hated you. Like a nameless disease, like an aimless torture. I have searched for answers to explain your suicide. I’ve preferred the version of an impulsive act. But you knew all this time that you’d finally go. You’ve prepared your own death with a smile on your lips. We lost a friend, (A) part of ourselves, It will never be the same! Something has died With you this day We’re the orphans of your smiles! How could you?

Submitted by Dahmers Fridge — Apr 25, 2025

Can’t you feel That I have changed my mind About my lure of death And suicide I’ve felt myself really ashamed Since the time I lost one of my best friends And my mind (I) Won’t follow him! I think that I would not do some- Thing like that to the people Who protected me when I was younger But I can’t really feel some hate My friend was so afraid That he has not realised The pain he would make me feel The pain he would make us feel The pain he would make them feel This wound that can’t heal up This mouth that won’t shut up Remembering us that he’s gone He left this world behind To run away From depression But I can’t really forgive

Submitted by Dahmers Fridge — Apr 25, 2025

You won’t wait a long time, We will join you soon It’s a fateful crime But it the same for everyone We live our life and then we go (I) know you were suffering Watching us a last time Emotional torture But it’s the same for everyone We live our life and then we go Everyone’s already lost someone... How many friends, relatives and loves Have we lost Will it take end, will we be able to stop, This endless pain But no one is prepared To live something Like the suicide Of a 21 years old Friend Who lived his life in pain And went before his end Now that you are gone, Lifeless as a stone We have learned something, That it’s the same for everyone We live our life, And then we go But we can’t accept To stay without you! A common wish to die But it’s the same for everyone You’ve left our life (But) they have to go on.

Submitted by Iron_Wraith — Apr 25, 2025

Somewhere else, Anywhere far from this place (I) can no more breath While I remember your face Today again (I) won’t come to weep for your remains Can’t find the strength Oh yes I’m coward, yes I’m afraid But please don’t look at me now I think that I won’t bear To brave this confusion Oh yes I’m coward but I don’t care Oh please don’t look at me now (I) Won’t come to stare at the show Of your bed made of stone Of the worst thing you’ve ever done I can’t Come to blossom your grave My feelings Should fall in pieces (And) dissolve in my veins I don’t know if one day I don’t know if one day I’ll come To read the beloved name Engraved on your new home I don’t know if one day I don’t know if one day I’ll come I don’t think that I will (Be)cause I’ll be somewhere else I can’t find the words In front of your mother I now that I’m sad But I feel better than her I can’t imagine The hell she’s been living in Since the day you’ve gone You, the younger son. Her feelings have felt in pieces (And) dissolve in her Veins “The difference between guilt and shame is very clear: We feel guilty for what we do. We feel shame for what we are.”

Submitted by BloodShrine — Apr 25, 2025

My friend, we can’t forget you As you wanted us to do. This letter you’ve written... These words... Your last deed. We can’t forget, we can’t forget The one you used to be. But we will always smile When we’ll think about... These great moments of joy and happiness. But there is something That we won’t forget either, That will always be present In our souls and in our minds: Whenever we smile, We can’t take away this taste That lingers in our mouths (The) taste of eternal regret. We miss you my beloved friend, More than we thought it was possible. We miss you my beloved friend, It will never be the same (again). (Be)cause all this time, all this time we’ve Passed together has changed us. All this time, all this time Obsess our thoughts every day. And everyday we’ll have a thought For the soil in which you lay.

Submitted by NecroLord — Apr 25, 2025

This track is instrumental.

Is this song not instrumental?

What should I’ve said? What should I’ve done? What should I’ve guessed? What sign should I’ve read on your face, What sort of friend am I? I’ve been so deaf I’ve been so blind. I didn’t understand your pain And I feel so guilty my friend I realise that for you We didn’t count enough to Give you the strength To fight for life To face your pain You have preferred To close your eyes and run away. I imagine your face Quietly kissing Death You should Have found the strength To fight for life To face your pain You have preferred To close your eyes and run away. I imagine your face Quietly kissing Death I can imagine your face Quietly kissing death.

Submitted by Lake of Tears — Apr 25, 2025

All the things let undone, All the smiles that are gone, All the love you won’t know, All the places you won’t go.

Submitted by NecroLord — Apr 25, 2025

I can remember a lot of moments with you Talking and talking again Dreaming on music Becoming famous, playing with our idols Joking about Nicolas car Yes, a lot of times So I can’t understand yet And I start to feel very cold In this bath that is getting empty Just like me I’m speaking alone Can’t you realise? Can’t you realise? Look at me now I think I couldn’t feel worse Speaking to a ghost The best friend I ever lost Look at me now You have to realise My friend How huge is The mistake you’ve done No I couldn’t feel worse What have you done my friend What the hell he’s done something like that? Why did you hide your pain? Why didn’t you ask for some help? Maybe he did? I think I’m lost Yes I think I’m really lost I don’t know what to think There’s like emptiness of myself A pathetic naked boy speaking to the walls We could call it the bathroom monologue What do you think about that? But wherever you are I hope you keep laughing Yes, Just keep laughing.

Submitted by Finntroll — Apr 25, 2025