devil's/speak

I wonder if you meant it Any of the times you said it Or did you just regret it Every second, every minute The sad part is I could never hate you After everything I still forgave you It doesn't make sense Why I'm still upset Still hanging onto everything You ever said Nights I spent wondering Why wasn't I enough? You left me lying on the floor With my ribs crushed I wonder if you meant it Any of the times you said it Or did you just regret it Every second, every minute Did you mean it? When you said it Just regret it Every minute Even love is ruthless And these wounds are proof That we survive But at the cost of being used Why do I always let The wrong ones in? To give them the satisfaction Of having them win Well this time I won't bury the hatchet I want my revenge I wonder if you meant it Any of the times you said it Or did you just regret it Every second, every minute I never had it that good before I felt so alive Till I bled out on the floor The one that stood out From the rest Ended up as buckshot Through my chest Fucked me up Like an all out blitz Had to get a fix Got a 9 from the 6 Going at a full clip Real shit No tricks Bad luck Bad bitch Fuck you Feel this What's it worth To feel your pain When it soon discovers rage And we've grown to resent each other Push ourselves away Pushing down the pain Putting faith in you Was my only crime Your words Are poison dripping off the vine I cut out every memory Till you're fucking dead to me I still hope you fucking hurt Just like I did You never deserved Any ounce of my kindness You know that I heard You fucking survived it Still hoping you're breaking Under your vices You'll never hurt In the ways that I did I regret all the times That I fucking forgave you Used to abuse So I'm easy to lie to Still wondering Why did I love you? When I couldn't even trust you

Submitted by Sexy Gargoyle — Feb 22, 2026