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Numb to it all To everyone I see Fake conversations & nowhere to lead And I don’t relate to anyone I won’t even try Damaged and desensitized I was yours and you were mine I am so sick of the fact that nothing good ever lasts And I can’t move forward if I don’t adapt But how can the world rip you away like that Eyes glazed over It’s one in the same No amount of intoxication Ever loosens the weight I can only disintegrate Under everything I couldn’t change Reminded of all the things that I can’t change Numb to it all To everyone I see Fake conversations & nowhere to lead And I don’t relate to anyone I won’t even try Damaged and desensitized I was yours and you were mine I am so sick of the fact that nothing good ever lasts And I can’t move forward if I don’t detach But how fuck do people move on so fast? Everything feels so god damn temporary I have no love to give And won’t sit here to force it In desperate attempts I turn it and forfeit I’ll let in everything To feel it all again Forced to learn the lesson That everything ends Intoxication Won’t kill the pain It all feels the same I’ll only just disintegrate What’s gonna drive me to care? Cause I don’t anymore Bleeding on the bathroom floor To feel something more, anything more than this Regret’s at the bottom of the bottle And I always find myself at the end The only thing that makes me feel alive Is slowly killing me at the same time

Submitted by Finntroll — Feb 22, 2026

Split wrist Pull it back or call it quits Pain pushing addict Suffering in silence Medicated to block out the violence Short sighted with a chip on my shoulder I'm trying To push it down but soon reminded that the hurt just keeps on biting And wounds Break open from time to time - Maybe you’ve stitched your scars But the blood still pours from mine Stop the bleeding Give it a rest They said But I promise I'm begging for the end Survival of the fittest But why am I fighting To live in a mental prison Biding my time to stay alive Buying time till I die In a cycle of violence That carousels in my mind Keep twisting thе knife Your words never seem to catch up with your actions Pеople are a game to you You thrive off their reaction Distractions Obsessed with lust and attraction Control and attachment Don't learn from the past and You hate yourself I know but you hate to see me go Afraid you might end up alone But you reap what you sow Scary to think about if shit came to the surface If people knew the real you Would have it been worth it ? Stop the bleeding Give it a rest They said But I promise I’m begging for the end Survival of the fittest But why am I fighting To live in a mental prison Biding my time to stay alive Buying time till I die In a cycle of violence That carousels in my mind Keep twisting the knife (space between this as well) Salt to the wound Whenever I think about you It's been a year since I left A year of me trying to make it make sense Not sure what is worse These fucked up feelings or the fact that it still hurts What will I get you to stop? What will it take….. I've always bit the bullet To spare someone the pain While I'm gutted from the inside You held the fucking blade Near six years of my life Now it's all a waste All the times I trusted you When I should have walked away You'll always be my biggest mistake I've always bit the bullet Just to spare you the pain Still gutted from the fucking inside Reminded of you everyday Near six years of my life But I'll continue to save face Even though I know, I loved you You’ll always be my biggest mistake

Submitted by Finntroll — Feb 22, 2026

Things are crazy lately Haven't been myself down on the daily Neck deep digging till I'm weak The devil's on my shoulders while I'm at his feet Stressed out like 24/7 Can't get a grip on my aggression This tension never lessens This is my depression session Gripped tight with old wounds Mouth shut, silenced and reduced This trauma acts like a noose That binds closer and closer the more that I move And what do I do? This rage that I feel results from abuse And what do I do? It's been years and you still refuse thе truth There's no closure With thе pain that stems From my own anger Or my wish for revenge You think you've gotten out But then they throw you back in There's so much I can't say So much that I can't undo You think I wished for this? Like I wanted to be abused Fuck you For blaming me for all of your mistakes You've played the victim for far too long While I burned at the stake And what do I do? This rage that I feel results from abuse And what do I do? I'm peeling at the flesh cause there's nothing to lose There's no closure With the pain that stems From my own anger Or my wish for revenge You think you've gotten out But then they throw you back in There's no closure With the pain that stems From my own anger Or my wish for revenge You think you've gotten out But then they throw you back in You put the pressure on me to speak While you sulked in your own misery You hate yourself and you blame me So in hell we'll both take a seat I'll be the fucking devil if that's what you want me to be I'll be the fucking devil if that's all you want from me Just to let me be I'll be the goddamned devil motherfucker I'll be the goddamned devil if that's what you want from me

Submitted by Finntroll — Feb 22, 2026

Hold my breathe in Russian roulette If it's a game you want It’s a game you'll get Are you satisfied yet? Waiting till the end Someone's gonna wind up dead What if it’s one of your friends? Where is the means to the end? What if it's one of your friends? Where's the means to the end? Living for the suspense It's entertaining isn't it? The blood on our hands so fresh When the adrenaline kicks in Thе high is worth the consequencе I guess The high is worth the— Forget it It doesn't get easier Despite what they say Desperation concealed in the bullet That I'll hope takes this feeling away Death has the upper hand Time waits for no one Nothing ever goes as planned I'm sick of saying goodbye Burying my head in the sand Turn my sadness to hate It’s a better disguise Hard to explain With tears in my eyes Screaming till my lungs give out Screaming till I’m on the ground I wish I didn't give a fuck Victim to a mind still unsound We all have our skeletons What makes you so sure that yours are hidden? I don’t trust anyone Behind closed doors Keep up appearances We're all so bored We all have our skeletons What makes you so sure- No one gives a shit What you've been through They'll tell you they care When they want something from you Hold my breathe in Russian roulette If it’s a game you want It's a game you'll get Are you satisfied yet? Waiting till the end Someone's gonna wind up dead Aren't you so fucking perfect? I wanna be like you When the damage is done You'll wipe your hands from the blood Claiming that you're a good person God you're so full of shit

Submitted by Finntroll — Feb 22, 2026